Here's a comment I received recently, and again, some people just don't get it:
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This is not going to be a supportive comment, but I do mean it well. As background, I am a straight (I think) married guy, who is drawn to bisexual images and stories, but who has not acted on these. That's my dilemma, but I think that you are really cheating both your wife and family. A job, a blog, working out "five days a week", lunch dates, afternoon motel hookups, texting all weekend -- when are you a father? I have found many of your posts to be simply narcissistic, in particular how your focus on young, "A&F" types. Even if I discover that I am truly bisexual, I hope to never lose the personal discipline to be a father and husband first, before anything else. Perhaps this sounds contrived to you, but I have always tried to live this way, and I think you are letting some people down who are more important than you.
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I have to ask, is that all you do is write comments to blogs? I mean, you say you're straight, married, but drawn to bisexual images..hmm..so you spend your time writing comments AND looking at naked men online? You're life is consumed with those two things, correct? I mean, even though you didn't tell me that you are gainfully employed, spend time with family and friends, socialize, maybe workout, eat at normal hours, shit and piss, and brush your teeth, being relatively intellectual, I don't dismiss the fact that you probably do all those things (OK, maybe except the brushing of your teeth).
So, why can't you understand that you're not seeing the full picture when reading my blog? I could go on and on about how I wake up at 5am every morning, before my family awakes, pee and brush my teeth, get dressed, go outside, pickup my newspaper, warm up my car and drive to my gym to workout. I could go into the various routines I have at the gym, the cardio I do 6 days a week, the weights I lift daily. I could explain how I rush back from the gym to wake up my sons and prepare them for school and see the both of them off at their buses, before taking some quiet time for myself to shave and shower before heading to work, all before 8am.
I could tell you about the Starbucks coffee I chose that day to drink in the traffic I hit on the LIE on the way to work, or on my way to whatever appointment I have that day. I could tell you how I'm sitting at my desk well before the actual day starts so I can get some alone time at my desk to clean up before the hectic day begins. I could explain about the nasty man that works in the office down the hall, or the never-ending copier problems our office always seems to have. Would that be interesting to read?
Would you like me to explain how some days, even though there's a cement wall between us, I hear people coughing and sneezing in the office that borders mine, and sometimes I can even smell that they have ordered a toasted cinnamon raisin bagel? That some days I can work until 6 or 7pm, and still not clear the files that seem to multiply on my office floor? How about that on almost every day, I head back home, sometimes if I'm lucky enough, in time to have dinner with my family, but almost 100% of the times to at least tuck my littlest into bed before a our own personal "tickle time fest". How about that every day I ask how their day was, how school was, and how they did on their tests?
Are you interested in the fact that when there's a basketball game, or baseball game, I am sure to be coaching to in the stands cheering my sons when they do well and explaining the importance of being a good loser when things don't? Would you like to hear about the breakfasts that the kids beg me to make on the weekends, or the special lunch or dinner meals I love to prepare my family on weekends? Is that what you're interesting in reading on this blog?
You see, dear commenter(s), this blog is but a slice of my life, just like I assume, your comments and interests are but a small slice of yours. The blog timeline also is quite a bit different from real life. In the past 6 months of this blog, you've heard sexual and non-sexual stories and thoughts from my days in college, over 25 years ago. Do you think all this happened to me in the last week?
It's also probably not as interesting to hear about the daily family things that happen each and every day in my life. It's not the reason behind this blog. I suppose there are those that may read my blog and think that because every entry is about sex, deceit and relationships, or the hunt for sex and relationships, that those are the things that encompass my entire being. I, however, would like to give the benefit of the doubt to my readers, and think they are smarter than that.
For those that aren't, I have located a blog that should interest you. It seems right up your alley.
dullestblog.com Enjoy!
God, I've gotten to this point in my life, and I still have doubts sometimes. It's crazy!
Don't get me wrong..I still love looking at pictures of hot guys. It seems I still have that attraction..sometimes....but it's feelings like those that make me wonder if I'm Bi at all! Maybe it's a sexual addiction. Maybe it's the rush of doing something I shouldn't do. Maybe it's a replacement for intimacy that I don't receive at home. MAYBE I'M NOT BI!
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