Hmmmm

And just like that....Blogger reinstates my blog.

No "sorry"...no email..no excuse us, our mistake.

Must be the diet tips that pissed them off.

Well..there's more news in the future...stay tuned..sorry to leave everyone hanging for the next few days or so..but at least now you'll be able to come back here for some news...


Get it? ;)

Hump Day: Jin Xiankui

My workout/diet update:
Last week I kinda hit a funk.It was due mostly to coming down with a cold, so even though I still did cardio at the gym in the mornings, I blew off the weight lifting and also the night time cardio sessions. Anyway, end of the week, I was surprised to see my weight down to 192...after the weekend, was back to the 193/194 range - amazing how much it fluctuates!

Anyway, this week I'm feeling better and I've pushed the weights more and plan on resuming the cardio at night. As far as the comments I've received, and the recommendations..appreciate it all! Except, there are things that keep me from trying them..

1) eat smaller meals more often (6 times a day): when your single, living alone or something, it's a lot easier to eat 6 small meals a day. When you have a family, you cherish the times you can get home on time to eat with everyone together.
2) eliminate all cookies and chips:  I mentioned I eat 4 cookies and some chips with my lunch. I've eliminated all snaking otherwise for the most part. For me to eliminate those few cookies and chips would really make my family think I'm going too crazy with my diet - they already think I'm doing too much. I never eat ice cram or chips etc., when they're all eating while we watch TV. I'm with my orange and fruit. Also, it's the one little bit of pleasurable crap I can eat and I eat it at lunch.
3) fruit is a no-no: some have told me to stop eating fruit because of it's high sugar content. While this may be good advice, fruit also is a healthy alternative and full of stomach filling fiber.

Don't feel bad for me...I'm not some heavy guy trying to lose 50, 60 pounds because of my health. I am an in shape guy, better shape than anyone my age, who is compulsively obsessed with trying to get my body in better shape than ever.

Here's a guy that needs no help...

Tomorrow..continuation of Eyes Wide Open.

Fired Up (V)

Next week..a 4 part story. It's a good one, you're gonna wanna check back!

Have a good weekend everyone!

Erasing

Chatting with Ross hasn't changed..not one bit.. well minus the sexual innuendo's for the most part..we avoid any sex talk.

But, we do still chat. Often..he disappears sometimes..sometimes for a week, but, he's busy traveling and comes back to say hi. We wish each other happy whatever..on New Year's I texted him..he was sick in bed, but, we chatted and sent our "holiday wishes."  I guess that's what it comes down to..our relationship.."holiday wishes"..sad.

It's not all like that. We do have a friendship..we have consulted each other on different things..work related, stress related, gay/bi issue things. It's nice to have someone to bounce things off of. I wouldn't dare talk to him about sex..or about relationship stuff.

In a recent IM with Ross, we were reminiscing..about our trips, stories, fun times. He actually started bringing it up..sending pics of us together. I started bringing up other things, stories too. Then I said something about erasing some things from my mind.. He said something like "there may be a lot I'd erase from my mind, but there's nothing I'd erase about you." Awww..

Should be in a Hallmark.

Hump Day: Marshall

Name: Marshall
Stats: 25yo, 5'11", 150 lbs, blond/blue

It's Not a River in Egypt

It's almost how I live my life, with some exceptions.

I wake every day and hit the gym, running, sweating, working out.  Trying to attain that shape that I've lost long ago, maybe 4 or 5 pounds that I cannot, will not, shed, not matter how fucking hard I try.

I come home, eat a very sensible fiber breakfast. Lunch? No McDonald's for me. I bring a pretty healthy lunch to work almost every day to work.  It consists of turkey, ham, salami, lettuce on whole wheat, a few cookies, chips, fruit. Nothing crazy and compared to others..downright strict!

I go home, eat a regular dinner, then at some point - more fruit. It's not often I eat chips in front of the TV, Ice Cream? Shit..can't remember the last time I ate it, much less had some that wasn't low fat or no fat yogurt or something. Then, lately, I'm headed back for some cardio at the gym.

On occasion, I will skip a meal and eat a fiber bar or no fat frozen yogurt with fruit. But those 4-5 pounds still don't come off.

It's all about denial for me.

Knocking on Heaven's Door

I'm no newbie anymore. I've fucked my share of guys. I used to blame my inabilities on my relative inexperience in fucking, but now? I have no excuse.

I just can't get it in, not without help anyway. I know it's down there..I know where the entrance is..but, I can poke around, knock on the door..but nobody let's me in.  It just ain't that easy!

I know some guys are real tight, and I guess that's the main reason. I mean, there have been a few guys, maybe a handful that you can turn over, stick your hard cock on their hole and ..there ya go..no problem.  But, generally, things don't move that quick. I get my cock ready, the guys ready, I place my cock..where I think it should go..and..it's like banging my head against the wall. It just doesn't go.

Usually I require a hand..that of my partner who reaches around, down, or wherever position we happen to be in and gives me a guiding hand. Then, I'm good.

Anyone else have this issue? Or is it just me? Please, please don't leave me out there alone. I'd hate to think that I'm the only one needing a hand.

A Fag Hag?

Some of you have asked about my diet progress. I started at 198, then got to 196, now at 195. I'm hitting the gym hard, sometimes 2 times a day.  Anyway, I'll be updating you..

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Another letter from a reader..this time from a girl. We have a few of those on here. I'm an equal opportunity blogger!

Hi BLM -
I am not sure, but I may be the only straight girl who reads your
blog!  I found it a couple of weeks ago, and it took me this long to read it from the beginning.  What?  Are you a slow reader?, you ask.

No, in fact, I am a really fast reader - I just couldn't devote more than a couple of hours a day.  I also read all the comments as well. Funny, I feel like I really know you.  Many of your readers have said that to you, but as far as I can tell, I am the first girl reader to give you feedback!  Yay for me!  So, after all of my due diligence, let me give you my observations, and there are many.  By the way, the one guy, whoever he is that writes under "anonymous" really has a lot of nerve to keep dissing you.  I was happy when you finally told him once to "get lost!"  He needs to be reminded again, don't you think?

You are honest to show us his comments, but at this point, I would kick him out - I'm sick of him!

First of all, you seem like a very smart, witty, and yet serious guy. You are very introspective and thoughtful.  I think sometimes you say things just for impact, but that is completely ok.  This is your blog, after all.
You describe yourself frequently as being very good looking.  It does sound like you are very hot.  You actually must be similar to my husband, who is 48, 6'2", 200 lbs, brown hair, green eyes.  From your
photo though, you have a much better tan!

You constantly use the two words 'your' and 'there' in the wrong contexts.  You use your, when it should be you're and there when it should be their, etc...  Other than that, you have great grammar, and you should, considering you finished grad school!  Typos make me nuts.  Don't people reread before they hit "post"?  Sheeesh.

Anyway, reading your entries is almost like reading stories.  It's a fantastic ability, to be able to tell good stories.  Sometimes it's romance, other times it's hot sex, and other times it is non sexual musings or opinions.  I really have enjoyed reading them.  You are a great writer, and if these stories are true, you have had some really incredible experiences.  I would venture to say that some of these entries are publish-worthy. Funny enough, though, I found myself skipping your political entries.  I don't want to taint my opinion of you by knowing your political leanings.  I fear it may taint my feelings about you, and I don't want to do that.  I have very strong political feelings, and if they are different from yours, I don't want to know that.  Just like you should not talk politics at work, for the same reason.  You don't want political differences to cloud your
interaction with coworkers, and politics has nothing to do with the workplace.  I don't come to your blog for politics. I won't read those entries, but please feel free to post them!  I believe you stated that only 5% of your posts were of that nature, so it doesn't bother me in the least when you write off-subject.

You are very interesting, and I love reading about what you want to share of yourself.  It is very brave to put yourself out there like that, even though we don't know who you are. It is a really brave thing.

I would love to privately chat more with you if you would like.  I am happy to tell you about myself, and feel free to share stuff about your wife if you would like to.  You and I are the same age, 47. People always tell me I look like I'm early 30s as well.  Nice to hear, isn't it?  I am blonde, 5'7".  Sorry - can't disclose my weight to anyone!  LOL!  But I go to the gym 5x a week.  I am not a food nazi, like you LOL, but maybe I should be.  I must be pretty attractive still.  I get frequent glances from men that are nice, and several times in the last couple of years, I've been out with my husband, and overheard men say to him "lucky guy!"  Wow - that feels good.  :)

It is hard for me to understand the ease with which you move from person to person in your adventures.  I mean, you chat on line a couple of times, then go to their home, hotel, etc., and right to the bedroom. Someone once even mentioned what I was thinking.  Aren't you ever afraid that something might happen to you?  Your wife would have no idea where you were.  I'm sure this had to have occurred to you. It
could be that because I am a straight girl, I don't understand the mechanics of meeting online, and hooking up right away.  I have no experience with that.  I think I would have an anxiety attack!

Ok.  Onto your wife.  Maybe you won't mind my commenting, since I am a girl.  I totally understand your defenses and  not wanting to get to involved in discussing her.  She is completely separate from this part
of your life.  It sounds like you love her and respect her as the mother of your children, and I bet she is your best friend, at least, I hope she is.  My husband is my best friend.

During my reading, I did post a comment on a post I was reading.  I was curious as to whether or not you still had any sort of sex with her at all.  But then, as I read further, you did say that you no longer do.  She laid there "like a lox", and you eventually got bored with it.  I get that.  I understand that, honestly - you don't want to do ALL the work!  I'm wondering if you guys just gradually let it die, or did you talk with each other about it at all.  I can speak on this because, remember, I am a girl, and your wife and I have the same body parts.

You have shared a lot with me (on your blog), so I will share with you.  I have never had an orgasm from traditional penetration sex.  I have great ones from oral sex, and obviously, from masturbation.  Wow.

 I have never shared that with anyone, let alone a guy I have never met!  Anyway, I have read that this is actually very common in women. We need that direct stimulation thing.  I think my husband is frustrated a little by this, but even we don't really discuss it.

Anyway, back to the point.  Have you guys tried going down on each other lately?  Did I just get really  personal, or what? From your blog, I know you love to be sucked.  I'm just wondering if she could be doing that for you, and would you return the favor? Oral sex is just amazing, isn't it?  Just the best.  Can women love it more than men?

 Anyway, if you ever want to chat, away from your blog, I am here for you.  Something tells me that maybe you could be there for me as well.  we can share more later on, if you are willing.  In the meantime,
watch for me to comment on your posts!

Take care ~
Mandy

Latin Heat

Usually a screen name or profile name is misleading. "Boys" usually aren't, "Hotties" typically are not. But this one didn't disappoint, so far, at least.

His name was some combination of Latino, hot, smooth, stud and masculine. So far, I'm impressed. He's 28 years old smooth and athletic. His pics looked..well..fucking incredible. Beautiful chest, a pretty big cock and cut (I like that).  Nice face too!

He contacts me..and we chat a little. He lives a little far from me, but work does bring me into his area once a week or so (or maybe more if need be). He tells me to call him tomorrow, so maybe we can make plans since I'm going to be around there then.

I call, a few times that day. He doesn't answer. But, I did leave a message.  Not expecting anything I get an email the next day saying that he got my messages, and was sorry, he got called out of town for business.  But, next week, maybe we can meet finally.

Now, I know it's very little to go by, but, nice guy it seems. Hot, handsome and some manners (for emailing me an apology).  That all goes in my book as pluses.

We'll see if things progress.

Hump Day: Kurt

Kurt Madison is a model from Randy Blue. He's got those amazing green bedroom eyes and small hot little bedroom butt too!

Utelsils

Sex is good..sometimes it's pretty hot. I've been pretty lucky lately. Some hot sex with some hot guys..Jonesy, and a few hookups with some younger guys. So, I guess I can't complain..shouldn't complain..but...

It's missing something..and that something is...not surprisingly..a connection. Duh! I knew that having sex, basically with strangers would be just that..SEX and that there would be no lovey-dovey.  But I am missing that part of meeting with a guy.

When I was with Ross, things were different. Sex was fun..funny, hot, passionate, and after..we hung out..spooned, kissed, slept..god..it was amazing.  Having someone next to you, that you love, that loves you..and being able to hold them in your arms..is just an amazing feeling.  You never want to leave.

I remember an especially hot time I had with Ross. We went out drinking. We were both wasted by the time we left the restaurant. We headed to the motel, walked in, and ripped each others clothes off. We couldn't wait to touch each other, please each other, be with each other. We ended up soaking wet, from sweat and other bodily juices..on the bed, laying next to each other..touching..and eventually, we fell asleep.

About 2 am, I awoke..freaked..and jumped out of bed. We had both fallen asleep..but we both had to be home..and I was thankful it wasn't 9am, rather than 2.  It wasn't what I wanted to do, but, I had to get home. So we left.

Sometimes, sex is sex. Sometimes it's much more. It's certainly better when it's more.

Top Heavy

I wonder what the ratios are..you know, tops to bottoms.

It seems like almost everyone is a top. Everyone's looking to fuck, but there's nothing to fuck.  There's a scarcity of bottoms out there. Kinda like OPEC turning the nozzle down on oil production,or the neighborhood Toys 'R Us has very few of the hottest toy during holiday season, or when a Broadway production has huge advanced ticket sales, demand exceeds supply and therefore the price or desire for such an item cannot be satiated.

Likewise, if 95% of guys are tops, there are only 5% of the gay population to take it in the ass..and their demand is higher - not to mention the exhaustion factor!  I mean, how much can one bottom take - and who would want them anyway, at that point?

It seems that if you guys want to be ahead of the game, and even out this fucking thing for us we need to somehow breed, or convert some of these tops to be bottoms. This way, demand would be lowered and the few bottoms that have been servicing all us tops can relax, have a day off, and let their assholes recover.

It's not easy being a top nowadays. We need more bottoms. I'm going to start a petition, or call my Congressman, or take out a newspaper ad, or hand out fliers..put them on parked cars in the mall.

We need bottoms...bottoms needed desperately. Make money at home...be a bottom. Help the bottom line. Bottoms up!

Don't even get me started with the "versatile guys".  They're screwing everyone up!

Gimme a Hand (V)

Brush With Fame

I'm a big sports fan, even bigger baseball fan. I've  basically followed one team, and one team only since I think my birth..and that team is, yes, the Mets. Yes, that second (at best) team in New York. Second, of course, to the dreaded and evil empire, Yankees.

Well, being it's the first week of the baseball season, and the Met's officially have been eliminated from the playoffs already, I wanted to share a few stories with you.

I remember exactly where I was in 1986 when Mookie Wilson's ball scooted underneath Bill Buckner's legs to allow Ray Knight to score the winning run in what many believe was the final game of the World Series (It wasn't.  The last game of the World Series was a blowout win over Boston the next night). Soon after, I was in New York City at a club with some friends. The bar area was kind of quiet, but there was a stir in the back. I looked over and saw two Met players drinking. One was Keith Hernandez, at the time, my favorite Met.  As he gathered himself up to head out, I stepped near his path and stuck out my hand and said "Good Job!" or something like that, as he shook it and continued his way out.

I've also met some other players at various events and dinners.  But, my recent brush with fame was more recent.  I was invited to a charity event given by the New York Mets, where some players would attend. We were told that this wasn't an autograph signing session, so please don't bring items for signature. I figured, who are they going to have now in the dead of winter? Some minor league scrub..maybe a bullpen pitcher. But, I was pleasantly surprised.

After an hour of food and drinks, there was a sudden noise of people and then applause.  In walks Mr. Met, the Met's mascot. People run around to take pictures... lol..

Then, in walks Jason Bay, a former Pirate and Boston Red Sox all star that hasn't quite had a great first season in New York.  Pretty nice I thought.  People gathered, took pictures and shook hands.  I stood on the outside, just watching.  Then, in another corner in walks Carlos Beltran, he of the 2006 strikeout against the St. Louis Cardinals with the bases loaded and the Met's down 3-1. Yes, that loser..again, I watch as people maul him with pictures and handshakes.

Then in another corner there's a big hub-bub.  I walk over to see a strikingly familiar face, that of David Wright.  David's not only a great player, the face of the Met's, a home-grown talent, but he's also a hard worker, plays through injuries and seems like a genuinely good guy.  Not only all that, but he is my current favorite Met player and incredibly hot. I always thought  the guy was good looking...but seeing him in person, I almost melted. I needed a picture!

The crowd around him was huge. People talking, taking pictures, children smiling, women fawning and me, pushing them all out of the fucking way. I'm getting close..he's smiling, magnetic-fucking-steamingly-attractive. For every pictured David sticks his tongue out in the way he does prior to hitting a baseball, before breaking into a perfectly white, bright smile.

..and it looks like I'm set for being next to take that once in a lifetime picture. He turns his stubbly face to me, smiles, and the gleam of his eyes catches the light and glistens. Cue the harps...start the fog machines...He was mine!
I step forward and smile for the camera as I shake his hand and grab him around his shoulder. We smile, and I ask him if he smiled for the camera.  "Yea, of course!" he replies.

And then he was engulfed again..in the throngs of people waiting for a piece of his flesh.

Me included.

Hump Day: Nice Ass- Err..ad!

I came across this ad. It's seems like it was published maybe in some fitness magazine. The model, Luke Perham gives his 5 "body truths": thoughts he has on the male body, and about his thoughts about his girlfriend.

Damn..with an ass like that, I can certainly be his girlfriend!

A Hole in My Head

There will always be bloggers that decide not to blog anymore..who have garnered our attention, some for a long time..but, because of work, or relationships, or a busy life in general, decide to call it quits.  Others stop blogging because the get deleted by Google, or they've been "discovered" by someone that they do not want to have read their blog.

As these blogs disappear or stop updating their blogs, I've removed them from my "blog roll" that listing of blogs on the bottom of my blog. That listing is a verbal agreement between two bloggers that they will continue to list each other on their blogs as a form of mutual advertisement. Listing on blog rolls is a way to gain new readers and spreads your word to those who may not otherwise discover it. I've made it a loosely enforced rule that those blogs that have gone un-updated for more than two months will be removed from my blog.

A part of this "mutual agreement" I expect that those bloggers that have added me, will continue to have me listed unless I have insulted them, or my views no longer are something they can promote. While I suppose this could be true in some cases, nobody has ever told me that they can no longer promote my blog because of something I've said.  But, in my regular maintenance of my blog, and daily reading of other blogs listed in my blog roll, I've notice that some have removed my blog from their lists. Now, I wouldn't be insulted if their list was a handful of a select few blogs, that I obviously don't have any commonalities with, but often, these blogs have numerous other blogs listed.

A few blogs, I felt the need to inform them that I should be added back, or that I've removed them and I hope it wasn't due to something I wrote.  Others weren't worth the time to write an email. That's why I've decided that I can no longer add a blog unless I feel it's "worthy" for lack of a better word of being on my blog and read by my readers. No, I'm not some great thing on the net, but the maintenance of my site is hard enough without the upkeep on the blog because someone has removed me, or has stopped blogging for months on end.

I get lots of  requests for blog exchanges..more often from spammers. There's one that I automatically delete when I get their request (and I get them about 4 times a week) and that comes from some "Khmer" dude. His blogs have no followers, all ads and lots of pop-ups - clearly not "worthy" of my reading or yours.

I am always looking for great "reading" blogs like mine. Those with names like "cum-fucking-whores" are a dime a dozen.

Taster's Choice

Is it gross to have cum in our mouth? Someone else's? How about your own?

Well, I've had others cum in my mouth..it's should be no great surprise that the person who came in my mouth was Ross. I've also swallowed his cum and I never found it gross or unappealing. As a matter of fact, at times when I was so horny to see him and wanting to be with him, I've yearned for it. Yes..yearned for him to cum in my mouth..Eeech! lol

Most times when I'm jerking off, I'm pretty horny too.  I don't usually jerk off, unless I just can't take it anymore..and this weekend was no different.  Since earlier in the week, when I met with Jones, I hadn't blown a load, and Jones had said we would meet maybe Friday, but that didn't happen. I was anticipating meeting him and when we didn't I was..well, let's say pent up.

So, even though I tried to avoid jerking off, I ended up ready for bed, and really horny. I knew I wasn't going to get much sleep, and my hands were a-roaming. I was hard almost instantly.  As I watched some pics on some porn sites, I started stroking my cock, then, trying to prolong the pleasure, I stopped and let my hard-on subside a little only to start the fun again.

I was really, really horny and often when I'm in this state I think to myself, "I'm going to take some of my own cum in my mouth when I blow" but that thought often goes by the ways-side when I cum.  It's kinda funny..I'm so into it, until that time that I blow, then I'm like "what the fuck was I thinking! I'm not sticking that shit in my mouth!"

Sometimes, when I'm on a web cam with someone or people and I cum, they say "Eat it!" and I tell them, no way!  That's food for others, not me!

Anyway, eventually, I stop edging myself and I'm gonna cum, and I'm gonna cum hard.  I'm still horny, still thinking I'm gonna eat this spew of goo...and then I blow a load - and while I'm still cumming, I scoop up the first jizz stream on my stomach and stick it in my mouth.

Hmm..really warm...really..thick..and honestly, not at all unappealing. Surprisingly, it really doesn't have much of a taste at all. When blowing someone else, I don't really taste it since a cock is in my mouth and usually it goes right down.  But this time, I was able to taste what cum really tastes like.

Hey, it may not be Merlot, it's not caviar...but, damn..I taste good!

Don't Hate Me Because I'm Bi (V)

I've really had it with the haters, and because of those guys..who email me incessantly, I've decided to close my blog down. I'm done with you fuckers! I'm going by way of Scotty..and leaving the blog world.

Only kidding, it is April fools day after all...(but fuck you nasty asshole commenters anyway!)

But, I know a lot of gay guys scoff at others who say they're bisexual. Whether I am bi or not, I'm shocked by insensitivity of gay people, who for years had to justify and explain their "inhumane" and "incomprehensible" love of people of the same sex. It's the same fight for equality and recognition that the blacks had (and have), the Jews had (and have), the Women had (and have)....

Nobody has ever said it better than Blaine on Glee....

See you all on Monday!