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I guess I should start my new postings (after all those annoying reruns) with an update on my life.
Ross: Yea, might as well start here..what everyone wants to read about. My re-runs about Ross, as usual got a lot of comments. Some were funny..like "Dude, is this a re-run? Seems like this has happened before." Yes, it was a rerun. Yes, I did date Ross for 2.5 years and yes, we broke up. Yes, I was miserable, yes, I had sex with others..yes, I thought about him incessantly for the 9 months we were apart..and YES! - we got back together..things were great..went away together again YES!! YES!! YES!! And YES we broke up again (that makes twice for those of you counting).
But that's where the similarities end. I loved and still love Ross. Probably always will. We had an amazing relationship..were very, very close and he knows more about me that anyone else in this world. But, although I think about him often, and we do chat online..and even talked a few times on the phone..that's it. We're friends. (YES! I've said that before too!) But, I've decided I won't give him the pleasure of my pleasure anymore (hey, that's a good line, huh?) - nothing antagonistic about it. No bad feelings (well, maybe a little). It's just that I have too much respect and pride to allow it to happen again.
One of our conversations strangely had him bring up yet another business trip. He asked if I'd like to come along. God, it's funny how clueless he is sometimes. Without thinking..without a second to ponder I said "nah, I think I'll pass."
Work: My transition at work has been terrific. I left my old job, and started a new business. My office is beautiful, the people i work with are great..and I had a few very profitable weeks. of course, there were also a few not so profitable weeks too. But overall, work's a much happier place to come to. Just need to get more money coming in too.
Family: Family is good. Everyone's enjoying their summer. More family stuff to be posted soon.
Blog: Did I miss the blog? Well, it did take time and effort to run my re-runs, despite what you think. There's still some maintenance to be done in order to keep things running smoothly the way I like. I miss being able to spill my thoughts out there and get responses. I do, on occasion think about ending things here (the blog ;) )..but I also get such great comments that it helps people that, for now, I don't want to leave anyone hanging. I'm hoping I can still put in the effort it takes and have the thoughts and experiences to be able to write about. I don't want it to be like "sorry guys, don't have a lot to write about today..just wanted to say hi." That's no fun for me or you.
Anyway..that's the wrap up! More to come..I do have lots of stories and thoughts that I've been working on - and of course, lots of pictures of hot guys I've been collecting. I want to ..and I always have..encourage you to write me (via email) about your stories. It helps to have questions to respond to or if you have a problem it could also helps others. Also, feel free to comment. I do read each and every comment and post almost all of them even if they're adverse to my opinions although I reserve the right to reject anything nasty and rude.
12 comments:
Welcome back and thanks for the wrap up summary. You really sound like you are in a more positive place all around, despite the ending with Ross. Perhaps feeling better about your work and your family will actually lead to you having a different kind of focus on finding a guy to meet your bisexual needs.
So many of us envied you for having such a young, gorgeous lover like Ross, but could also see you need a man who can understand your place in life, and be more fully developed in their own maturation, for real long term relationship building.
You have loved a man and been loved and that is a wonderful treasure you will have. And you seem now over the loss.
Congratulations, you are now into new beginnings, and should have better luck at integrating all the parts of your life.
Thanks Jason....
Am I in a better place? eh..somehow, I feel I'm just treading water here...with a pocket full of rocks..and sharks nipping at my toes!
But, thanks..I try and keep a positive attitude!
I just discovered this blog, and I'm glad to see I'm not alone. I'm married and bisexual, and I wrestle with the whole "am I cheating" thing. But a man wants what a man wants, right?
@Anonymous: Yes, you're cheating. How are you unclear on the concept?
Radical Joe
BLM you are the best of best, I see a lot of blogs, and you bring out the best for us. I don't know how you do it, but you are like an angel, without you we would not get the information that you give us. Thank You!!1 Thank You.
BLM: Don't be sad regarding Ross, you did things on your terms so be glad you still have him as a friend. Now you can move on and find someone that can work within the boundaries of your requirements.
Welcome back! You are growing, and that always brings with it some pain.
XO FFB
Thanks all for your support!
You all are just too nice. BLM is great, love BLM. How am I going to slap him around with all this love going on!! :-)
Yesterday, I sat for hours reading your blog. Yes, the "eye candy" looked good too. I am somewhat amazed that you have not had problems balancing everything. I am suprised your wife does not see it. Maybe she is just looking the other way.
I have been married for nearly 10 yrs, and have thought about this for some time. But I keep going back to several points: a) the STD rate is nearly 20%, b) my wife can read me like no other, and last but not least, c) I love her. It is not worth the heart ache to be caught. My wife noticed a few weeks ago during an oral session my quantity was less than normal. Why, she asked. I had jerked myself off prior. This fact alone was cause for a significant conversation.
While I would like more male friendships, I have decided seeking an encounter is not for me. Adding a secret relationship to juggle would end in dismal failure.
Take care.....
Thanks for sending the love!
It's nice to see you back. We missed ya.
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