Bi Like Me Redux: Ho Hum..or So I Thought

Didn't everyone get the fact that yesterday's post..that I was declaring myself gay, was made with tongue firmly in cheek?  Apparently not....I was trying to point out that I don't fit into the clear definitions of straight or gay. That post, typical for most posts here about my sexual definition struggles, garnered a lot of comments.  Thanks all for your input..love them!

Well, I wish I could say things have been busy on the relationship front..but they're not.  I've been consumed with work, which is a good thing for a change.  Work's been very busy for a month or so..and I've also begun my search for a new job.  It's kind of a weird place, as I've been with my current company since graduation..almost 20 years ago.  But I think it's time for a change.  I've got work issues here..too many too disclose or go into.

It's a little nerve racking, and also exciting ..sending out resumes, and talking to new people interested in what I do.  I'm finding I'm in demand...so, that's a good thing.

In my search, I've asked some advice from none other than Ross.  We do keep in contact, and I had him read some resumes and cover letters I had prepared. I can always count on him for some good comments.  We had some laughs, and I told him that's what I miss most about us not being together.  Ah, oh well...


I have definitely been interested in meeting someone.  I haven't stopped looking, chatted with a few prospects that didn't develop into anything...one guy is kinda far..I mean, other side of the country far, and he seems nice..still waiting for him to move to be near to me...lol .. not gonna happen.

Now a little ass...isn't this guy amazing? Cute eyes, face, love his little dollop of hair on front,  the cute tattoo, oh yea..what a fucking ass!



In blog-dom..I've been asked a lot to do "link exchanges" with lots of other blogs and for the most part, have added them.  I've also seen those requests increase as my readership increases.  Looks like I'm now at the 2,000 visits a day mark and by the time you read this almost 200,000 total visitors!  I love that people are reading and finding what I write here in my little corner of the earth to be interesting.  I watched as my blog went from one measly "friend" to now, almost 200. It's exciting.




There are a few blogs that I follow..that I would LOVE, LOVE  LOVE to be listed on..but I guess they are waaay above me. One such blogger, Davy Wavy has a blog called http://www.breaktheillusion.com/, and I used to watch his videos when I was just scanning YouTube.  His video's are great, his workout information terrific, and he has one kick ass body (and he's cute to boot).  Although I've made many requests to be listed on his blog, he has not responded.. Boo Hoo!  Maybe someone out there can nudge him for me.

Another little obsession of mine: believe it or not, I saw a guy on someone's blog..he's a model and the blog had some pictures posted of him.  I found him striking and I was immediately infatuated with him.  I did some research and wham-mo-bango, eventually he responds to my email and we're now face book buddies.  Nothing I'm sure will happen from it..but, I just like to fantasize.

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Update:

So, started out as a regular day at work..reading blogs, taking care of my blog..and filling in some time with some work too.  Then an IM from Ross, again,..not unusual. But, again, he goes on about "how's your day looking" "are you busy today" etc.  But I don't take the bait..because he does that all the time, and I try and resist getting my hopes that, in his retarded way he's asking if I wanna meet up or something..because it never comes to that...so, I just say going good, not too busy..

Then he asks...wanna grab a cup of coffee today?  WOW. I guess it took him 9 months to finally fit me in again. What am I some kinda jerk?  here at his beck and call?  What am I gonna run just because he asks? Am I just sitting around...waiting for him to finally decide it's time to see me again?


Damn sure I am!

And I'm all of a sudden excited...anticipating..and nervous...how will it be? What will we talk about..and..will he try something.. and if he does..what should I do?

I want to say I won't respond..or I'll say something regal like: "Ross, I don't think this is appropriate anymore."  But, I also know it will take everything I can muster to resist him...

TWO HOURS LATER:
So, we meet up...again, it's wouldn't normally be unusual for us to grab a cup of coffee during the day, at least it wasn't unusual when we were dating.  But, I'm walking to Starbucks and I'm in the middle of texting him..that I'm there..I briefly look up..see a man about 30 feet ahead..and then back down at my phone..and then up again to watch this guy..and I'm watching..watching..not exactly clear on what I am seeing...but, it's Ross.  And he comes up to me..give me a handshake and hug..

"Hey! How are you?"
Jeez..didn't even recognize you!" I say (I really didn't-I saw some cute guy..but for some reason..I looked and looked.and it didn't compute that it was Ross)

We head inside...got our coffee and talked about..not a whole lot of meaningful stuff...then..

"I missed you" he says

and I kinda shoved that aside...just continuing our talk about nothing.

"I missed you" he says again a while later.
"Well, I've been here..I guess you didn't miss me enough to see me over the past 9 months."
"No, I did..I've just been busy. But you look great." he says.


..and we chatted for the rest of the time.

It was fun..relaxing, comfortable..and I am completely and utterly happy just looking at him..seeing his smiling face, and hearing his voice.  It was a blast from the past..and way past it's time..shoulda happened long ago...
 
"Wanna make a date for January 2011?" I say sarcastically when I was leaving.
"Nah, we'll do it sooner..I hope."

"Me too."
Me too.

UPDATE TO THE UPDATE
So, then I get back to work..he gets back to work..and he texts me..."come here and let's have dinner tonight."

"Tonight? Jeez..gonna overdose on me today.. Kinda late to be making dinner plans. Let's try another night."

"OK, then just come here..to say hello"
"Hello? Thought we just did that" I say
"Nah, we should really say hello" he insists

Hmmm...